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Lois Mailou Jones - Babella, Paris 1938

Lois Mailou Jones - Babella, Paris 1938

A Woman Wearing Red

Malika Ali January 13, 2014

I wrote The Curious Habits of a Wanton Wife as a short piece of fiction loosely inspired by rumors.  These were rumors of my grandfather's philandering, but the truth is a little more heartbreaking.

I grew up in a pretty open family.  Any skeletons hung out with us at the breakfast table, never in the closet.  I was awash with childhood stories.  And I thought I heard all there was to hear.  I was wrong.  Here is what I learned.

My grandmother Mary Lillie loved to talk on the telephone.  They had one jack installed for each floor of the house.  This was new.  Before the two jack system, there was only one phone.  My grandmother kept this one phone occupied.

The year was 1972.  Grandpa Saul had been laid off from work at the steel factory.  He used his down time to get better acquainted with the neighbor.  On the 1st floor phone, he and the lady made plans to meet up.  On the upstairs phone, my grandmother made plans to dial up a relative in Georgia.  She never made that call.

As Saul found his way out the driveway, my grandmother sat still.

Before long, she was searching, fumbling with keys to a locked cabinet.  This was a curious thing.  She avoided this cabinet.  This is where Grandpa Saul kept his gun.  Mary Lillie was afraid of guns.

Saul would pull out his pistol only on New Year's Eve, shoot as soon as the clock struck midnight, then put it away.  This gun made my grandmother very nervous.  Now she was standing with it by her side.

She took it to the meeting place of Saul and the lady.  They were not found.  She searched late into the night. She searched long enough to return home and lock the gun back inside the cabinet.

***

Saul was the controlling type.  He didn't want Mary Lillie to work.  He didn't want her to spend time with her elder sister Maggie (Aunt Maggie wore platinum blonde wigs, owned a beauty shop, and dated Big Timers).  He also didn't want Mary Lillie to wear the color red.  Tramps wore red.

The morning after overhearing that phone call, my grandmother got up and dressed herself.  She wore red from hat to heel.  She wore red and went to church.  It was Sunday.

She soon took to bed. Then the hospital.  She was dying.

My mother remembers receiving a late night call.  Her mother had asked to speak to Saul.

"Mama, daddy isn't home."

Mary Lillie, from her hospital bed said, "OK, do not tell him I called."

When my mother and her eight siblings were carried to Cleveland Clinic the next afternoon, they saw their father sitting by a man's bedside.  The man was unable to speak or move.  My mother at age fifteen was confused.  She asked, "Why are we in a room with this old man?  Why aren't we visiting my mother?"  My grandfather answered her, "This is your mother."

Mary Lillie's hair had turned white over night.  Her skin ash gray.  There was little trace of herself.  Her own children did not recognize her.

When my grandmother passed, shocked and weeping mourners crowded 113th Street.  Mary Lillie had meant a great deal to them.

My grandfather wed once again, but found himself at my grandmother's grave every Sunday.

He died a decade later, of a heart attack, while having sex with a woman who wasn't his wife.

In Family, Writing
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Sugar Cookies - Chewbachy Style

Sugar Cookies - Chewbachy Style

Bowing at the Altar of My Inner Cook

Malika Ali January 2, 2014

I only have one resolution - just one.  The year 2014 is prime time for me to bow down to my Inner Cook.  I want her to have the reverence she deserves. 

I deliver a meal every evening to a very tough audience.  My husband is vegetarian.  My 6-year-old is pescatarian.  My little one thinks cheese is a gift from the gods.  My teenager hates cheese, except when it sits on a pizza.  I am a full-fledged carnivore and 100% lactose intolerant.  Confused yet?  Imagine feeding this bunch.

It has been my practice to prepare one meal with several variations.  On spaghetti night, everyone agrees to eat the noodles.  Then vegetarians have a meat-free sauce.  The meat lovers get the ground turkey.  The cheese lovers go to town on the Parmesan. The cheese haters abstain.  We all eat together and on very rare occasions, one of us enjoys the food.  It's usually me.

I believe in making the good stuff.  I take to heart the sentiment we are what we eat.  I buy local.  I buy organic.  I grow food out back - avocados, figs, plums.  And I decorate a well-balanced plate.  Still cooking has been a miserable experience for me.  I spend far too much energy waiting for an applause.  Instead of the standing ovation anticipated, I typically get blank stares and lots of questions like, "What is this?" and "Why are you making us eat it?"

I haven't enjoyed the process, I realize, because I have been far too invested in the outcome.  Eating is something we all have to do - two or three times a day.  No wonder cooking can feel like a chore.  I don't want to spend another year staring reluctantly at the stove.  And I won't. 

This is the year I will dance in my kitchen while throwing peas in the pot.  I will try new recipes and only entertain ways to make them as flavorful and nutrient rich as possible.  I will hang out at chefy spots like Sur La Table, Surfas, and Williams-Sonoma.  I may even drag my husband out to a date night cooking class.  Why not make it sexy?

I got a head start on this resolution at the end of 2013.  Those not so religious Christmas cookies pictured above were made with my own hands.  My Inner Cook delighted in pressing teeny Star Wars faces into homemade dough.  These treats didn't last long after making their debut.  Nobody questioned why Yoda was a holiday cookie or why they had to eat him.  They just ate.  And I moved onto the next recipe - a chicken soup with egg noodles, carrots, leeks, fresh herbs, in a broth made from scratch.  When our college kids took this meal back to campus, my Inner Cook took note, but kept moving.  I took a moment to laud her with praise, then sat down and ate the soup myself.  I enjoyed it - as usual.

Share your favorite recipes in the Comments section.  My Inner Cook will thank you!

 

In Family
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Photograph Copyright Patrik Wallner.

Photograph Copyright Patrik Wallner.

Havoc the Holidays

Malika Ali December 18, 2013

Drama is conflict.  It draws us to the edge of our seats.  It keeps us waiting, wanting to see what in the world will happen next.  

So why do we try so hard to escape it?

Embracing drama might make the holidays less festive, but it won't make them less entertaining.  As creative bodies, we should use this time of year to examine conflict a little closer.  You need rich material for your next novel.  Maybe you work in reality television and have run out of fresh ideas. You could even be gainfully employed in dispute resolution and looking to invigorate your training manuals with up-to-date scenarios.

Wherever you are and whatever you do, look at the holidays in a brand new light.  Stop seeking peace.  It is futile.  Instead havoc the holidays.

Here are my top five suggestions for Holiday mayhem:

1. Don't stuff a crabby family into a station wagon.  Do you really want to endure an endless barrage of "are we there yets."???  Instead, consider hitchhiking.  This will kill any preconceived notions your little ones may have about stranger danger.  Imagine the rush of riding shotgun alongside a hairy truck driver.  What stories might you uncover from her sordid past?  And if you all survive, your kiddies will have the best "how I spent my winter vacation" essay for their teachers. Win-win!

2. Don't blow the bank.  In fact don't spend any money at all.  Winter is the perfect time to change religions.  Be brilliant about it.  I envy those faiths that require fasting all day long.  Imagine how much cash they save.  Instead of going into January broke and worried, they bring in the new year with fat pockets and a slim body.  If your children were expecting presents and now feel they're getting the short end of the stick, explain that they are free to practice whichever tradition their heart desires.  You will embrace their generosity and gladly accept their gifts.

3. Invite family members who despise one another to your home at the exact same time, on the exact same date.  Stand back and enjoy the brawl.  If you placed bets on the winner, you just came up on some extra holiday cash.  Video tape the fight and YouTube it.  It's guaranteed to go viral.

4. If your drunk aunt wants to dance on the dinner table, don't be a prude about it.  Allow her the space to shake her shimmy.  Make it rain with the funds you won from the family fight.  But don't YouTube this one.  It's uncool to record someone without sober consent.  

5. Go to a shelter and stay the night.  It's super altruistic to offer visiting relatives your entire house.  Savor the soup those holiday do-gooders are ready to spoon into your bowl.  You didn't have to cook it, so be thankful.  But whatever you do, don't sleep on the cots.  Instead, pack an air controlled tent.  This is a sure way to keep tuberculosis at bay.  

Have better ideas? Let me know in the Comments. 

 

In Family
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